A few years ago I had a brush with various psychological theories. Some seemed bull, some made sense.
Recently I had an epiphany regarding someone’s reactions and behavior.
The theory sounds like that:
Answer fast – gut feeling, don’t over rationalize – what do you hate most?
At the time I answered “stupidity”.
I have an allergy to stupid. I feel my skin itching around stupid people, as I often illustrated.
Well, it seems the answer represents more than one would think.
It actually shows you’re greatest fear – not to be perceived by others that way.
So I’m so scared not to be considered stupid. That’s why sometimes I cross the line, because I really feel like I should have an opinion on anything and wave franticly my intellect.
That’s why I come across as bitchy. My smart ass remarks about everyone, just to show all the time my sense of humor, my witty observance…
Never mind that.
So this person I mentioned in the beginning… He had a strong pleading against weakness. He HATES weak.
So logically he’s freaked out by the idea he might be perceived as weak. He must be ironclad. Fool proofed against any sensitive, tender, warm gesture that might drive anyone into the misconception he’s HUMAN.
So sad.
